It's snowing again! I love it when it snows. When I went outside to pick up my history paper, there were millions of snowflakes floating through the air. But the cold was nearly burning my face off. The pros and cons of winter.
I got a B- on my paper. I wanted an A of course, but a decent mark is fine. I'm very relieved! I finished writing that paper literally five minutes before the due date. I was really last minute.
I woke up at 2 pm today. I'm very ashamed. I went to bed at 3 am, but it's still pretty deplorable, not to mention a record-breaker.
I need to study for my history final, so I don't want to waste too much time. I want to ace it!
I went shopping at the mall by myself yesterday. Very enjoyable, albeit crowded. And I was thinking about how much I missed shopping with mom. How I usually loved spending that time with her. But I was a kid then. But then I realized... I'm an adult. I dress myself, I can drive, take the bus, the train all on my own, I make my own food, I have jobs and have had jobs, most of the money in my bank account was earned, I see my family less often (sometimes only twice a month) because I'm getting less and less dependent on them, no one wakes me up in the morning, I can legally drink, and I do (I've acquired a taste for white wine and cheap beer), I have my own room in an apartment, no one tells me to do chores, do my homework, clean my room, I buy my own groceries and shop on my own. In a few years I might be completely independent, with a boyfriend or husband, a job in music, my own house. I'm a woman, not a girl. It feels weird to say that. But I miss my mom. I always wanted to watch the Nutcracker with her during the holidays. Why didn't we do that? I miss shopping with her, watching concerts, musicals, operas with her, riding the GO train with her, asking her for advice on outfits, makeup, hair. Asking her what the high was (she always knew), her waking me up early, decorating the Christmas tree with her, baking and cooking together, practicing while she worked in the study, driving lessons (she either looked completely worried or not worried at all), watching chick flicks with her, camping trips as a family, seeing her pull into the driveway after a long day at work, speaking french with her. So many memories. But for some reason I especially miss our shopping trips at Erin Mills. We'd leave and say we'd be gone for an hour, but we were gone for four hours. Dad would call us and say, "Where ARE you?!" and mom would tell him that we were almost done or on our way home. She was a shopaholic. I miss her.