Today was my first day back and it depressed me and made me tired. What a wonderful start to the new year... University is simply a different world from home. I have so much less time and everyone around me seems so much, well, more impressive. You'd think I was in first year, double-taking at each person that walks by. I feel so impressive back in my hometown, but when I go back to university, I'm left wondering what it is that I have to offer?
One course that I'm in is really intimidating. Acting for Singers. A friend of mine said it was mostly yoga, but we have readings, discussion of readings, we have to prepare a monologue, a scene with two other people and an aria. Writing it down now, it doesn't seem so bad, but it feels like I have to have all this stuff ready for the teacher so soon... It's kind of scary. I miss chilling out with my family and writing fanfics, isolated in my tidy house. I was fantasizing about those things all day. I already want to go home and I have three days left before I go home for the weekend. I'm such a baby when it comes to homesickness...
No offense to my university apartment, but it's really not half as nice as home. And I'm constantly hand-washing my dishes... This morning, we hardly had any water and when I went to wash my dishes, hardly any water came out - not enough to wash anything, of course. It's back now, but student housing frustrates me. The landlord knows we don't know our rights, so he'll do a shoddy job with the hydro, the heating, the lighting, the fire alarm... Why can't landlords just do a good job, whether you're a student or not? Anyway, I have a feeling that I'm just depressed because it's my time of the month. But, all in all, not the greatest first day back after winter break. I really hope tomorrow is better. Time to go get some delicious corn chips!
No comments:
Post a Comment